Another year is almost over. For most people, it’s both a time of reflection and anticipation. We think of what we’ve accomplished and remember the happy moments that made us smile, while also vowing to do better or change something in the New Year. It’s time to say good-bye (or good riddance) to all this year has brought. Many view it as a fresh start and look to the future with hope. This will be a good year, we tell ourselves.
This time, I find myself not knowing what to think. Of course, I’m hopeful this year will be better than the last. And, naturally, I have many good memories to look back on. But one thing has not changed: I’m still emotionally stuck in the same place I was last year. I promised myself 2019 would be better; it wasn’t. I really believed I could let go of the biggest and most hurtful betrayal I’ve ever experienced. I haven’t. I’m still wounded. I cry for the life I thought I had. I cry because I believed I mattered, but keep seeing so many signs that say I don’t. I cry because I’ve worked so hard to make life better for everyone else and have no idea how to make it better for me. I don’t want pity, and I certainly don’t want things. I just want a chance to live my best life again, surrounded by people I care about, that truly care for me. And, more than anything, I want to feel peace.
I know I’m not alone. Many of you feel the same way. So how can we get to where we want to be in 2020? The answer is: Take action. I’d like to remind you of my post from October 2018: “Thinking won’t solve your problems. Doing will.” (You can read it at: https://www.facebook.com/deannakahlerauthor/photos/a.1488516158110690/1918612465101055/?type=3&theater)
As 2019 comes to a close, I know one thing for sure. The only way to get to somewhere is to do something. It’s up to you to decide what that will be. Make 2020 the year you take action. Share one thing you'd like to accomplish in 2020 in the comments below. Best wishes to all for an awesome year!